vacances!!!

SPRING BREAK BEGINS!!! classes are over for a week and i leave at 7 AM tomorrow for the beachy poo!!!

this week has been... weird. brandon pretty much sketched out on me this week, but i guess it's all understandable, mostly. and i let him know how i felt about it. hopefully things will straighten out. it wasn't anything really terrible, he just wasn't as considerate as he had been. and that worried me a lot. i don't know if he understands exactly how much hatchett scarred me for life. i really feel like this "hanging out" stage is going to just keep going on and on, like it did with hatchett, until he decides he's done with me. i told him some of that last night, but i just don't know if he completely understands the full weight of the matter. the reality is, though, it was late last night when we got to talk, so maybe tonight.

actually, last night was pretty crazy. the whole week was. wednesday was IFC intramural championship basketball game... sigma chi lost to pike. yeah. i stood with the sigma chis though, and met brandon in the middle of the gym afterwards, where he PROMISED me he wasn't going to stay out long and he would call me in an hour or so. he never did. i ended up drinking at cody's and staying with her. he told me at work yesterday that he lost his phone. i don't know. i guess i'll believe him. i gave him tons of crap about it.

so last night. i worked, so did brandon... we talked briefly. i got off before he did, so i went over to the sigma chi house to hang out with the boys. oddly enough, my friend matt and his friends that i hung out with a few weeks ago were over there playing beer pong... it was weird. but fun? anyways. a new club was opening last night, Aye Caramba or something... and one of the EXs- Jackass- is the DJ there, so everyone was going over there. brandon called, saying he found his cell phone, they were going to vinnie t's for free beer, and then heading over to the new place and he'd call when they left vinnie t's.

so we're about to head over to the new club when we see two guys who had left a few minutes before us pull back in the parking lot with a police car behind them. they shouldn't have been driving, but managed to pass 2 sobriety tests and got off with a ticket for running a stop sign. i don't know how. so i ended up driving there, since i'd only had half a beer.

we get there, and all the sigs pretty much are there, and it's pretty nice, no cover, and a big bar. it was almost like athens! so they didn't ID at ALL and i managed to talk one of my friends into buying me an amaretto sour (MMMMMM my fave!) and had that and smoked and all the sudden i see brandon! so i go over and he's like, "i just sent you a text! you're smoking?" but i never got the text and i was smoking. so anyways he says he'll come over and see me at my table in a sec, he needs to get a drink etc etc. so he comes over and talks to me in front of everyone (awwww public interaction!) and all and we really just end up hanging out with our own friends and not each other. it was fine though. i didn't mind. the club was fun but not too much fun because i was broke and driving. so after a while, the guy i drove over there wanted to leave and i was ready, so i went to say bye to brandon and he wanted me to stay with him, said they weren't staying much longer and he'd call, and then KISSED ME on the cheek/lip in front of his friends. it was spectacular.

but THEN he didn't end up calling me until 3:15 AM. that's a little over an hour and a half from when i left. not cool.

anyways. i stayed at the pike house with him and we sort of talked about us kind of... he doesn't want to rush into anything and i need security. we'll see tonight.

OK- SO i just got back from signing a lease for an apt this summer with erin! i'm really excited about it. BUT- bad new- one of the spring break sigs cant go because he crashed into a telephone pole. he ended up being ok, but he could have easily been dead. so he's not going. we've got someone to take his place, but i'm really sad. i like him a lot, and he's an excellent guy. he would have been tons of fun on the trip too.

lots and lots of drama. none of it good.

anyways. i'm doing laundry, then packing, then going to the dollar store, then rock island with the grandparents, then back to finish loading my car up for the BEACH AT 7 AM!, then staying with brandon (he's NOT going out tonight, he's going to be with me since i'll be gone for a week) and then in a few short hours- BEACHY POO!!! so.... yeah!

love
lindsey.