qu'est-que tu pense je suis? eh?

i don't know where my faithful readers are, but... umm... i feel like updating. i've got some down time before work at 1. not much, but a little.

this weekend has been a heck of a lot of fun. i went into it thinking i wouldn't see the sigma chis at ALL, because this is phase one (or at least is trying to be phase one) of get lindsey on the right track, so i was going to cut down on time spent there (because i spend a LOT of time there, and as nice as they are, i know we all need a break from people once in a while), and i was going to go to the gym more (so i can finally finish losing weight and buy some new clothes!) and i was going to work more and get all my homework done (to be rich and successful). but i haven't really gotten off to a good start on that. so TUESDAY will be day 1 of Operation On Track. we'll track my progress and see how it goes!

it's more than i just don't want to be over at the house all the time. i'll be oddly frank and honest here, and hope kelsey doesn't read this one, because i just don't want her to. but anyways. yall know how i am about wanting to be wanted. and you know how i need to hear it. friday night was so nice because they called and picked me up and everything. it was unusual. and last night i got invited twice to the KD's black and white party. and really lucas and jackson said some very sweet things to me that mean a whole lot more than they probably think they ever would (mostly something to the effect of 'i like lindsey.' and that's about it, but still. you know how i am). it's just that i'm continually worried that what i do one night will forever label me an enemy of the frat or something. i just need to know where i STAND with them. i need some sort of sign that i'm missed or whatever, which is also part of the plan, in that i will not be around as much until my goals are all accomplished, and so the day when one person (not jenkins, he doesn't count, because he's too good of a friend... there might be one or two other exceptions) but the day when one guy that i don't know ALL that well mentions something about me not being around, then i know i can go back. until then, however... gym and homework. gym and homework. or hanging out with girl friends. and that's IT. and I WILL STICK WITH IT AND I WILL BE A SIZE FOUR SOON AND I WILL GET TO GO SHOPPING! heck yeah.

and who knows. maybe when i'm skinny again, i can model some more and get RICH. go to nashville or something. wouldn't that be exciting? indeed!

so here goes!

love
lindsey.