ici

so i've moved in! i'm back in cookeville, i'm here, my stuff is mostly in my room (i left some of it in rock island, for a nice slow move-in) and i'm ready for school to start.

i'm frankly a little scared. i think i was spoiled this summer with so few people here. i'm afraid i'll get lost in the shuffle, and it'll be like UGA all over again, only without my sorority sisters. that's something that'll be hard to go without. i went to athens last weekend, and being with them and seeing them and my phi kappa brothers and sisters made me realize how nice it is to have built in friends and activities and plans. i didn't take advantage of that as much as i should have. and that weekend in athens also made me realize that yeah, i could have made it there. and very well, too. i would have been just fine once i was out of that dorm room. but i am happy here, and i think i have made the right decision. but it's nice to know athens didn't beat me.

so, if yall would, please pray for me. i'm scared out of my mind that the problem is me and i just can't be happy anywhere. and i really don't want that to be the issue. i want to be happy here and successful and have tons of friends like college should be. i want to feel at ease. i don't want to feel intimidated by every girl that runs around campus. i don't want to feel like the odd girl out, the ugly duck, the outcast, the closet girl, the bad mexican restaurant girl. let's just hope that that's not how it'll turn out for me. like lindsey said, i want to be shown off. i want someone to feel proud that they know me.

donc- allons!

love
lindsey.