un autre jour

I LOVE THIS SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!

i just had to get that out of my system.

ok. so last night, i started work at marble slab. it went fine, i think it'll be a fairly decent job. much better than cvs.

went to the house afterwards, had fun there, thankfully bryan kindly offered to move the rest of my stuff in the room, THANK YOU BRYAN! so we walk in, and lo and behold, there's my roommate with 8 guys in here, and some of them are over here with my stuff, and she's putting one of my picture frames back where it goes, as if it was just knocked off or something. and there's ice cream in a melty cup on the desk next to my laptop, and i'm thinking, this does not bode well. yeah, have people in the room. that's fine. but do NOT mess with my stuff. i said she could use my computer out of the goodness of my heart, but if there's going to be ice cream around it, i want to be in control of that ice cream. so now i'm kind of ticked about that. i'm thinking this may not work out all that well. and i'm tired of watching BET.

classes again today. it went fine. got out of brit lit early, which was wonderful, went to the caf to eat some lunch, found out they give us a lunch break automatically, but here's the best part. i went by myself, saw jared (one of the sigma chis) sitting there, sat with him, and BAM like... 10 other sigma chis show up! it's amazing! i just walk around and see people i know! i love it! so that's really exciting for me. i ate with them and hung out on the south patio until class started (i love those guys. they are absolutely the nicest guys ever, with the exception of jason, who will never be beaten in any love fest). in francais i'm now renee, as there's another lindsey and another grissom. and oh lala it's so french!

here's another great part though

i needed another class, since i dropped a few, just to keep it at 15 hours. i wanted an easy one with people i knew. well bryan mentions that he's taking germ 2520, country and people, and i'm thinking, yeah, this'll be easy and fun and i'll know people in there! only it's all full. so i signed up for some history class that was awful. after that class, i go see my advisor, dr. laird, and explain to her. so she calls the german dept. up, tells them i want in that class, and they say, oh, ok. well, germ 2520 meets with germ 3250, only the upper level class has more work. so there's empty seats in the upper level class, the lower one is all full, so THEY TOOK AN UPPER LEVEL SEAT OUT AND PUT IT IN THE LOWER LEVEL CLASS JUST FOR ME so i could take it. dr. laird let me use her computer to register for it and BAM i'm in. it's amazing and wonderful and i love having an advisor that's so caring and helpful. she'll do anything she can for her students. she's wonderful. and so is this school.

so that's that!

i'm getting $20 to do john's laundry today. so that'll be exciting!! so i figure i'll run over there and get that, do some homework while waiting for it, grab some dinner, fold some clean laundry, and then maybe head over to the house. we'll see though. but yeah. i'm in such a good mood right now.

love
lindsey.

mes cours

classes have started. it's going ok, i suppose. i'm not terribly excited about any of my classes, but they'll do. maybe they'll pick up and get better. who knows.

everything else is going tolerably well. i start work tonight. i hung out with shaina yesterday afternoon and that was a lot of fun. she's really such a sweet girl. i like her a lot.

went to the house last night, and that was fun. i didn't go until late, so i missed the luau thing... but that's ok. i don't think there should be that many girls there anyways. the guys should be talking to the rushees. i don't understand why it's not more structured, like sorority recruitment is. that makes a whole lot more sense than guy's rush. but ah well.

still got stuff i need to move in the room. i just can't muster the strength to move it in myself. it's too heavy! agh. frustrating. i need help! ;D

it's all hurricaney here now. i understsand just about everyone else got school cancelled. but not us. oh no, we're troopers. whatever.

going to class at 12 today- i really like these late mornings, it's nice. and then when i get out, hopefully going to jackson county with jenkins, and then doing nothing, and then going to work at 8. wish me luck!

love
lindsey.

ennui

so i had a good time in rock island. i was upset that i couldn't go to morgan county with shaina, and i hate that i had to cancel plans. i HATE canceling plans on people. but i needed to go to rock island. i got a little too much sun on my nose, but it was overall a good weekend.

classes start tomorrow. i'm so nervous about all of this. i've got some good girl friends here, but they all have boyfriends or a sorority, so i'm out of the loop right now (rush is gearing up). kelly lives next door to me, but i never see her at ALL, april is with her boyfriend, and shaina is with hers. and susan is with KD. and i am in my dorm room by myself. this WILL NOT be a sign of what's to come. i'll fix that. when the guys get done with rush, at least, i think it'll be slightly better. i just feel weird going over there right now, because i'm worried i'll get in the way of a meeting or preparations for something or something else... i don't know. and like... i want a rush t-shirt, but i'm too scared to ask to buy one or whatever because i'm afraid they'll think "shoot, i don't want HER advertising our fraternity! she'll give us a bad name! she drags us down! quick, boys, ignore her!" or something. i don't think they'd think that, but it's just one of those fears that i have. they haven't asked me to come to the house or anything, except john, who asked me if i was going to the thing at the new dorm the other night, so i just don't feel right going over there right now. agh.

on a lighter note, not one full of angst and uncertainty

me and the grandparents ate at the market the other night for dinner, and the people we ate with asked how allen, my grandfather's uncle, was doing. to which my grandfather replied, "oh you know allen. fat and sassy!"

FAT AND SASSY!

love
lindsey.

chouette!

so last night was fun. a little rough at times, but mostly fun. i moved a few things in to my room, took a break and went over to the house, where john so politely offered to help me move the rest in. i, of course, took him up on his offer (we all know i defer to the stronger sex whenever possible) and thought that was just absolutely wonderful of him. i hung out in the room for a bit, cleaned up, primped, etc, and then the super sigma chis had some sort of gathering complete with music, of the live sort. so i went over to that. of course it was fun. there were a few times when i felt slightly out of place, however, and that wasn't too cool. but the guys are far too nice to let it stay like that for long. i do adore those fellows.

after the gathering, adam jackson kindly took me back to my dorm and invited me to his place for the pre-joe extravaganza. so i primped some more and then chased down some cash and headed over there. i think just about everyone was there. and we all went to cotton eyed joe, aka the joe. it cost $6 to get in, and i feel like i just wasted a good meal. it really wasn't that much fun. at all. i talked to some people, but it's mostly dancing, and i wasn't in the mood to dance, so i didn't. so it was pretty boring. all in all. but it was good to see everyone again.

afterwards i came back and slept like a ROCK. woke up for my job interview and my arm was KILLING ME. i swear. shouldn't it be better two weeks after the iv that screwed it up? you'd think so. but i did get a job at marble slab, starting on monday for training. so i'll have an income.

and i have a roommate! she's really sweet, i think it'll go well. she's very laid back about everything, so i think we'll get along fine.

i don't know now if i'll get to go to the morgan county mud thing with shaina! i think i might need to go over to rock island tonight for the grandparents. that seriously bums me out, because shaina is SUCH a sweetheart and i haven't seen her in forever and i like her a lot. yall would too.

classes start monday, so ...yeah.

love
lindsey.

ici

so i've moved in! i'm back in cookeville, i'm here, my stuff is mostly in my room (i left some of it in rock island, for a nice slow move-in) and i'm ready for school to start.

i'm frankly a little scared. i think i was spoiled this summer with so few people here. i'm afraid i'll get lost in the shuffle, and it'll be like UGA all over again, only without my sorority sisters. that's something that'll be hard to go without. i went to athens last weekend, and being with them and seeing them and my phi kappa brothers and sisters made me realize how nice it is to have built in friends and activities and plans. i didn't take advantage of that as much as i should have. and that weekend in athens also made me realize that yeah, i could have made it there. and very well, too. i would have been just fine once i was out of that dorm room. but i am happy here, and i think i have made the right decision. but it's nice to know athens didn't beat me.

so, if yall would, please pray for me. i'm scared out of my mind that the problem is me and i just can't be happy anywhere. and i really don't want that to be the issue. i want to be happy here and successful and have tons of friends like college should be. i want to feel at ease. i don't want to feel intimidated by every girl that runs around campus. i don't want to feel like the odd girl out, the ugly duck, the outcast, the closet girl, the bad mexican restaurant girl. let's just hope that that's not how it'll turn out for me. like lindsey said, i want to be shown off. i want someone to feel proud that they know me.

donc- allons!

love
lindsey.

commencons!

in honor of a brand new school year, here's a brand new blog, just for me! because we all know that things get a little slow when you've got a bunch of posts (dang blogspot).

so keep an eye out for some posts once i get back in cookeville, my favorite place to live!

and until then, remember, i'm in birmingham doing nothing, and that means you ought to call me up!!

love
lindsey.